For what I am about to do, please forgive me!

Here I go!! Time to really take on the biggest challenge of my life and give it my best shot. I am nervous. I am concerned. And I need to apologize to everyone who comes in contact with me over the next month for the bitchiness, the depression, the lethargy, the meanness that may come out of me. I am going to do my best to control it all with yoga, meditation, and other self care, but I may have a few slips of the tongue, rolling of the eyes, slamming of doors, and maybe even a middle finger lifted while driving.

Yes, I am going off sugar. In fact, I am also going off of white flour, too. No more refined carbohydrates. And I decided to go all the way and take out caffeine and dairy products while I am at it. The caffeine and dairy is an experiment. If I feel really good after going off all of it, I will maintain that plan. The sugar and other refined carbs are not negotiable, however.

I watched a video today on the possible side effects of this endeavor and I almost waivered in my resolve. I had to remind myself that this is not a New Year resolution. This is about my health. The doctor gave me a good talkin’ to last month and we agreed that trying to stop sugar during the holidays would be futile. We agreed that stop date would be January 1^st. Now that the New Year is upon us, Sunday is my start day. I am delaying it by one day due to spending tomorrow with the grandchildren. It would not be fair to them to have to experience what I may be like.

In preparation for this, I have loaded up. I have eaten every sweet I love in the past month at least two or three times. I ate my last box of Orton Bros. Maple Cookie Buttons four days ago, my last bit of pumpkin pie today, and tomorrow I will polish off the bagels. I ate my office mate’s White Christmas like popcorn and had a short dalliance with a tin box of cookies in the kitchen at work. It is all coming to an end.

I have precedence for doing well. Maybe. I got drunk for the last time twelve years ago today and last year at this time I stopped eating meat. Some of you may think that giving up alcohol was a big deal, but since I just replaced it with sugar, my body hasn’t really detoxed. Sugar and refined carbs metabolize in the system similar to alcohol so my body hasn’t really had to go through a complete detox.

Again, I apologize. I don’t know what I will be like, but I do have self care skills and by writing this down for all the world to see I am hoping to have support. I wouldn’t be able to do this alone.

For more info - see previous blog post with video about sugar detox.