Zen teacher Thich Nhat Hanh wrote,"To
practice Right Livelihood (samyag ajiva), you have to find a way to earn
your living without transgressing your ideals of love and compassion. The way
you support yourself can be an expression of your deepest self, or it can be a
source of suffering for you and others. " ... Our vocation can nourish our
understanding and compassion, or erode them. We should be awake to the
consequences, far and near, of the way we earn our living.”
The Heart of the Buddha's
Teaching [Parallax Press, 1998],
p. 10.
Right livelihood has held
great significance in my life. I learned many years ago that working in a position
that does express my deepest self can lead to dissatisfaction, depression, and
loss of attunement with who I really am.
My first job at sixteen was
working in the laundry at a nursing home.
My inability to fold fitted sheets soon led to a promotion to nursing
assistant. My grandmother and mother had
both worked as nursing assistants in the same facility and were well-liked and
considered to be caring and compassionate workers. I like to think that I followed in that
family tradition. I enjoyed that job and
had hoped to eventually go forward and earn my nursing degree. My father, in a rare departure from his view
of traditional roles for women, insisted that I go to a four year college and
pursue something other than a two year nursing license. There was no discussion and I rebelled by
going to school for a year and then getting married. I showed him!
It took many years for me to get
back onto a career path that allowed me to express my desire to be of service
to others. From 1981 to 1994, I worked for an outdoor power equipment company,
first as an export clerk, then moving my way to executive secretary (major
fail!), and then onto my ten year position as a production control specialist,
scheduling assembly lines and support operations. It was a bad fit that led to risky and unfulfilling
relationships and addiction. I was also
aware that the products sold by this company were being used in ways that
harmed the environment (loss of significant amounts of the Amazon rainforest)
and production workers were being treated poorly. I was often taken to task when I raised the
issue of the impact that long periods of overtime would have on families and
was told that I was not to worry about individuals but about numbers.
I was able, however, to take
advantage of the tuition reimbursement program offered by the company to finish
my undergraduate degree and eventually use my retirement fund to finance my
graduate studies in counseling. When I
finally was able to move from a job that only fed, clothed, and housed me to a
career that fulfilled me, I was able to access that deeper part of myself that
finds great satisfaction in being of service.
I knew when I left that job that I wanted to dedicate my life to helping
other women through significant transitions in their lives, be it recovering
from addiction or finding safety. I find that I am at my best when I am in a
role that allows me to support others in a way that encourages their growth and
healing.
At times, when someone asks
if what I do is too traumatic or stressful, or if the possibility of funding
cuts could impact my employment, and if I should find something else, I know
that right now this is where I belong, that what I do is the right livelihood
for me.
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